Day 26 : Unexplainable
Sorry Blog...
I will have to use my "calling-in-sick" card.
ah! been sick and busy for a while, I will try and keep in touch.
Trust me, online world and me- its very hard to separate so I'll be back.
by the way (this is for you) I wasn't crying, I was sick. I think that was a given.
Day 25: Keep up and fight
We cannot and we will not choose the path of surrender
They say the greatest mistake ìs giving up,
that true strength lies in the will to keep trying.
Keep hoping things will get better.
Keep remind yourself all you`ve accomplished.
Keep everything in perspective.
Keep up the fight because at the end of the day,
that is what your left with - the knowledge that you did your best
and you wake up tomorrow and try again .
-being erica
that true strength lies in the will to keep trying.
Keep hoping things will get better.
Keep remind yourself all you`ve accomplished.
Keep everything in perspective.
Keep up the fight because at the end of the day,
that is what your left with - the knowledge that you did your best
and you wake up tomorrow and try again .
-being erica
Day 24: Enough
I had enough!
you are doing everything in purpose. Look back to everything you've said, not once remain the same nor any promises came true - not one. It will all change that is the fact.
back to reality and Reality SUCKS!
back to reality and Reality SUCKS!
DAY 18-23: CALIFORNIA LOVE
WOW!
That is the 3 letter word that would describe my vacation. Everything there was so unreal, I don't have to think about school, getting hurt, work, troubles and stress. The palm trees are my favourite. Highlights of my trip, I will try in make it short because little ms. jemie here needs some beauty rest.
That is the 3 letter word that would describe my vacation. Everything there was so unreal, I don't have to think about school, getting hurt, work, troubles and stress. The palm trees are my favourite. Highlights of my trip, I will try in make it short because little ms. jemie here needs some beauty rest.
- Hollywood Highlands - The most beautiful venue ever, great place to shop & clubbing location
- Level 3 - Crazy night. Strangers here I am and no one are "throwable" *wink*
- Ramada Hotel - best hotel by far and pocket handy =) [memories around that room]
- Filipino Center - my little manila. Goldilocks, Jollibee, Chowking and etc. I love that day & the *ahem* "pansin"; don't forget the phone shopping with 'kalogs'
- Universal Studio - it was ammazzinggly exciting. Again, we brought out the little kids in our heart.
- Dinner Chats - haha apparently, talking with momies can be quite fun. Almera's mom with the "one true love" article ahah crack me up a lot.
- Santa Monica Beach - the most beautiful view ever. Archades was fun
- Non Stop Los Angeles View Drive - well who would enjoy the drive if you are rolling beverly hills, bel air, santa monica and UCLA with 2 door infiniti : ) latest version. [ahem* cute puti *ahem]
- Stratford Shopping Galore - Outdoor shopping center filled with signature stores put my visa card in danger huh? lol good thing I got luggage issue but still it was crazy. It's killing me
- Monteray Tour - this town is totally historic. Architecture are definitely beautiful. Meeting those two little kids especially being able to make one naturally open up to me and not be shy. The story was this twins, one is outgoing and the other one isn't, but later one the shy type would just automatically hug me and wont let me go. Do i have that natural motherly love?
- Breakfast with my cousins - They are so cool. It is so funny how I got along with them still, I thought I would just be shy and be totally quiet.
- San Francisco Tour with my cousin daniel - Omg, he drive like crazy and I actually enjoy it. we are double the speed limit on the freeway trying to catch up wit the porsche. Then I got tour around few small gorgeous towns, the downtown san francisco - union square with adorable high end stores that I am so tempted with good thing I have to catch a flight back home haha. Plus the total highlight for me was the drive especially those downhill fast driving and literally we don't even know or see what's down there - it was that high yet my cousin still went fast - its like im a real rollercoaster the only difference is, I can actually die here haha.
- Bowling/'Last chit chat with the bestfriend - I was emotional rollercoaster ride but no tears.
- Flights - I had 6 plane rides in total within 7 days. Few plane rides were fun and memorable =D
Day 17: California sun
Omg! last night travel was very interesting. My first plane was quiet, quick and I had a nice seatmate. Then, the second plane ride - ohmyfkingosh! let me just say "kill me now" (ask why? hmm my seatmates *cries*).
I barely can't sleep, jetlag? ah maybe not - i guess I slept too much in the plane. Minnepolis airport is my favourite so far!
Today? Well, my bestftriend and I took the bus to the "Island" mall - geez, the bus fare is only $1.25; I wished its liek that too. We checked out the phone, I really want the sidekick phone but THEY CAN'T UNLOCK IT FOR ME! *cries* but for lunch, we had JOLIBEE! i had palabok and chickenjoy : ) its like my mini philippines trip. We checked out red ribbon, this huge filipino grocery, goldilocks and such. I want chowking but I am soo full : (
Soon, we are going to hollywood cuz I got a hotel booked at hollywood hotel and we are going CLUBBING!!!! (i'll update tomorrow) - I'm super excited but : ( i feel sleepy now so maybe i should take a nap first.
I barely can't sleep, jetlag? ah maybe not - i guess I slept too much in the plane. Minnepolis airport is my favourite so far!
Today? Well, my bestftriend and I took the bus to the "Island" mall - geez, the bus fare is only $1.25; I wished its liek that too. We checked out the phone, I really want the sidekick phone but THEY CAN'T UNLOCK IT FOR ME! *cries* but for lunch, we had JOLIBEE! i had palabok and chickenjoy : ) its like my mini philippines trip. We checked out red ribbon, this huge filipino grocery, goldilocks and such. I want chowking but I am soo full : (
Soon, we are going to hollywood cuz I got a hotel booked at hollywood hotel and we are going CLUBBING!!!! (i'll update tomorrow) - I'm super excited but : ( i feel sleepy now so maybe i should take a nap first.
DAY 16: Hello California : )
Hello California!
I LEAVE TODAY and I am super excited. I have errands to do beforeI leave though, and I have assignment that I haven't started yet. hmmm, lets see if I can pull a miracle again.
Okay, I'll try to keep blogging while I am there even just a quick lines of what I did. If not, I'll prolly just put them together in one.
Don't miss me much, I'll be back in a week.
Updates (3:27): damn i didn't do my assignment yet!
but anyways I want to thank you for everything and I am glad doing this "refresh" plan. I had fun today and it will always stay here - I like the metaphor btw, "the first ps3 game and me" but yeah. Anyways, enough with cheesiness. Let's get this ride on =D
but anyways I want to thank you for everything and I am glad doing this "refresh" plan. I had fun today and it will always stay here - I like the metaphor btw, "the first ps3 game and me" but yeah. Anyways, enough with cheesiness. Let's get this ride on =D
p.s my charger I spent looking for 2 hours last night while I am ultimately wasted and 30 minutes early this morning, my annoying little sister have it !!!! agh!
Day 15: Drunken baby
OMG! for the first time in 5 years, I am actually this drunk!
and i am still writing a post with edited HTML code while i can not even see straight! oh my gosh. ask kevin im so drunk im like screaming in alize fazolise and I sign that bill with a testimonial for our server hahah plus saying to her *you are so nice* haha! omg funny how i still remmebr this but when I wake up tomorrow I prolly dont. I was there with kevin for 2 hours and I keep complaining i do not feel anything now 1 hour later i felt everything. I had 2 la dolce mela martini, 1 sweet mama, 22 vodka straight shot, and 1 whiskey shot. who would not get a fucking drunk when I mixxed like different kind of drink in like a short fucking period!
THANK YOU KEVIN - FOR granting my wish, which is to get drunk before I leave canada or before I go to california : ) adventure wild ride here we go. I am kinda nervous for tomorrow morning but excited for tomorrow night. anyways I am spinning like I am riding a 10xf faster carousel ahaha and I am messaging random people.
annd, 2 hours later looking inside my room (drunken) i cant find my f*cking charger -____- im furious!
I am nervous for tomorrow as I ask you my final wish and i hope you will be HONEST
and i am still writing a post with edited HTML code while i can not even see straight! oh my gosh. ask kevin im so drunk im like screaming in alize fazolise and I sign that bill with a testimonial for our server hahah plus saying to her *you are so nice* haha! omg funny how i still remmebr this but when I wake up tomorrow I prolly dont. I was there with kevin for 2 hours and I keep complaining i do not feel anything now 1 hour later i felt everything. I had 2 la dolce mela martini, 1 sweet mama, 22 vodka straight shot, and 1 whiskey shot. who would not get a fucking drunk when I mixxed like different kind of drink in like a short fucking period!
THANK YOU KEVIN - FOR granting my wish, which is to get drunk before I leave canada or before I go to california : ) adventure wild ride here we go. I am kinda nervous for tomorrow morning but excited for tomorrow night. anyways I am spinning like I am riding a 10xf faster carousel ahaha and I am messaging random people.
annd, 2 hours later looking inside my room (drunken) i cant find my f*cking charger -____- im furious!
Day 14: Unusual
Oh my gee! seriously, there is something wrong with me. Its only 8:44 pm and I am seriously tired. I had the best driving in-car class today, I went pretty far than we usually go to. I did not make a lot of mistakes either. = ) yay!
I made 49 pieces of valentines chocolate today : ) I was gonna make marble chocolate but I end up mixing to much so it just showed as a light brown chocolate; there are a bunch of pink and cookies & creme chocolates too : ) ooohh putting my valentine tradition in play.
I was waiting for the bus for the long time and I was there 5 minutes early too yet 20 minutes later its still not there so I decided to just walk home andnot go to class. I cleaned my room instead and I still havent start my assignment due on friday yikess :S
Aight, Im gonna sleep pretty soon - after my ice cream : )
How could I stop myself from doing that, for myself at least.
I made 49 pieces of valentines chocolate today : ) I was gonna make marble chocolate but I end up mixing to much so it just showed as a light brown chocolate; there are a bunch of pink and cookies & creme chocolates too : ) ooohh putting my valentine tradition in play.
I was waiting for the bus for the long time and I was there 5 minutes early too yet 20 minutes later its still not there so I decided to just walk home and
Aight, Im gonna sleep pretty soon - after my ice cream : )
Day 13: Little Msz. Sleepy
Ah! I woke up late today and slept in decided to dish class but I went to work. Afterwards, I got my eyebrow & my nails done - getting ready for Fridayy!! I went home afterwards, very tired and I don't know why. I've been seriously falling asleep in the bus and everywhere especially lately - lets just hope its not what I think it is `cuz there is only one person to blame. ah!
Things to ponder:
What would you do when you wake up and decided to pursue or begin the preparation of your awaited "plan" then all of a sudden people would come up to you and say random things that they have never done before only today when you didn't wanna do that? ahh this is like several people to. Its like they intend it but the truth is they prolly dont. Ah!!! seriously, i don't need to know. especially if you think "xoxo" is that, or "xoxo" is this PLUS "don't blame me afterwards".
so ponder on that? wouldn't that irritates you, why all of a sudden? its like destiny or whatever is playing around or I guess testing how far can you stick to your original plan!
*Off to bed sweeties.
What would it take? What should I do now? It's ummm... i can't even begin to.
Things to ponder:
What would you do when you wake up and decided to pursue or begin the preparation of your awaited "plan" then all of a sudden people would come up to you and say random things that they have never done before only today when you didn't wanna do that? ahh this is like several people to. Its like they intend it but the truth is they prolly dont. Ah!!! seriously, i don't need to know. especially if you think "xoxo" is that, or "xoxo" is this PLUS "don't blame me afterwards".
so ponder on that? wouldn't that irritates you, why all of a sudden? its like destiny or whatever is playing around or I guess testing how far can you stick to your original plan!
*Off to bed sweeties.
Day 12: Busy Day
So Busy today, I wish it's always like this. (it keeps your mind of something, and it makes me smile).
Btw, I want to give a big shout-outs to all my friends. I'm so lucky I have tons. They all say the same thing "I am supporting you all the way". Oh geez! I finished 10 pages case study within 2 hours - um! oh i'm sucha procastinator (I would definitely agree).
Anyways, I made a big decision today. Something planned for this week and a couple weeks from now. This plans are solely for me and nothing but ME. Time to refined, redirect and focus on myself since I haven't been able to for years. I know that if I commit again, my plan will all be shifted so lets fully congratulate myself for this plan :) "well it's not done yet but early motivation counts" HAHA!
This plan is motivated by my "co-worker" who told her inspiring story this afternoon. (recall the story to myself* - cuz no need to announce)
Anyways, I'm off to bed. Very tired ! X0X0 (isn't flirting so much fun? esp. if your single)
Friends that are always been there for me put a smile on my face rather than the cuts you provide
Btw, I want to give a big shout-outs to all my friends. I'm so lucky I have tons. They all say the same thing "I am supporting you all the way". Oh geez! I finished 10 pages case study within 2 hours - um! oh i'm sucha procastinator (I would definitely agree).
Anyways, I made a big decision today. Something planned for this week and a couple weeks from now. This plans are solely for me and nothing but ME. Time to refined, redirect and focus on myself since I haven't been able to for years. I know that if I commit again, my plan will all be shifted so lets fully congratulate myself for this plan :) "well it's not done yet but early motivation counts" HAHA!
This plan is motivated by my "co-worker" who told her inspiring story this afternoon. (recall the story to myself* - cuz no need to announce)
Anyways, I'm off to bed. Very tired ! X0X0 (isn't flirting so much fun? esp. if your single)
Day 11: Let it go
Keep on Marching ...
left and right, left and right
Nothing too special today. I've been the quietest person in the world today and have little appetite. I'm glad there are people trying their best to make me smile but each time I look at the clock or I hear the time ticking, It's like I am lining up for my death.
I am happy though `cuz I got a pink luggage and I started packing but Ididn't start any homework. My clothes are ridiculously too much but the funny part it, that is not even a half of my closest nor quarter just prolly a pinch of my closet. Lmfao
I am happy though `cuz I got a pink luggage and I started packing but I
I just want this to end, this whole unnecessary and unimportant segment of my life.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEK TO FINISH!
It's like everytime you laugh, I'm getting stab. the funny part though, I still want you to laugh!
Day 10: Partyin` it up
Nini's 18th Birthday / Debut
[ big shout out to nini]
Why do I feel like this again? let me recall.
Had fun : ) Pictures & pictures + i Love my dress. I got home late again... hmmm getting habitual? I'm actually doing fun stuff when I am single. coolio! (especially disobeying all this rules?ahh! hihi)
*pictures will be up in facebook tomorrow ^ . ^
Had fun : ) Pictures & pictures + i Love my dress. I got home late again... hmmm getting habitual? I'm actually doing fun stuff when I am single. coolio! (especially disobeying all this rules?ahh! hihi)
*pictures will be up in facebook tomorrow ^ . ^
6 MORE DAYS
2 more assignments due + chocolates + midterms back
little do you know and little do i know...
2 more assignments due + chocolates + midterms back
Day 9: Broke the rules
but anyways...
ah! I think I will stop doing the top 3's thingy but I will continue to focus on good things each day. Oh man, today started off badly. I woke up so early and cranky, got to class so early and classmates/teammates are not there - I kinda snap, but take no offense `cuz I'm just cranky. Afterward, I had a very 'crucial-awkward-antifun' conversation over the phone. Then, off to presentation.
I'm the girl who like to break the rules and I think she is coming back.
(she lost herself for quite a bit, but it's all here now)
the fun ride already started, get a grip everyone especially you dear.
(she lost herself for quite a bit, but it's all here now)
the fun ride already started, get a grip everyone especially you dear.
ah! I think I will stop doing the top 3's thingy but I will continue to focus on good things each day. Oh man, today started off badly. I woke up so early and cranky, got to class so early and classmates/teammates are not there - I kinda snap, but take no offense `cuz I'm just cranky. Afterward, I had a very 'crucial-awkward-antifun' conversation over the phone. Then, off to presentation.
I am very sleepy so I had several naps throughout my bus rides. I got to squareone, did a bit of shopping and hell ya! I spent so much money (kill me now! I am definitely broke but thank god for Visa). Suprisingly, I saw a bunch of friends. I said "hi" of course, some I hang out with for a bit. For those I saw later that night had funny expressions.
Anyways, It's 1:18 am and I just literally got home & tired. I am just going to sum this all up. Today was definitely FUN and that a little bit surprise me. I barely noticed the time and my phone which is very unusual. I broke all the rules of the 'house' ; went home an hour later than my curfew and NO phonecall back. It was funny on my way home kinda reminds me off my 'past' memories as I was walking around the empty square1 parking lot and inside the closed mall.
see, I can be happy and I am actually liking it. more to come? [all I know is I am not exclusive to any1]
Anyways, It's 1:18 am and I just literally got home & tired. I am just going to sum this all up. Today was definitely FUN and that a little bit surprise me. I barely noticed the time and my phone which is very unusual. I broke all the rules of the 'house' ; went home an hour later than my curfew and NO phonecall back. It was funny on my way home kinda reminds me off my 'past' memories as I was walking around the empty square1 parking lot and inside the closed mall.
*busy day tomorrow : ) or let say the "weekend" =]
Shop list: Bare Minerals Set & Sephora Concelear ; Pencil "hot' skirt.
Shop list: Bare Minerals Set & Sephora Concelear ; Pencil "hot' skirt.
Day 8: Missing Pass
after 3 years of using GTA Pass....
it drives me crazy, thank god the week is almost finished but still. I seriously have so much homework to do and I haven't start anything - not one. Total procastination instead I had 3 hours nap? ahh - Oh jeanne! what is happening?
let's just end it that way, nothing to special for me today anyways.
That is the end, no more looking back. not worth it
Updated (1:01 am): What to do? I like you but it would be wrong.
[wild ride here I come?!]
I LOST IT TODAY!
it drives me crazy, thank god the week is almost finished but still. I seriously have so much homework to do and I haven't start anything - not one. Total procastination instead I had 3 hours nap? ahh - Oh jeanne! what is happening?
let's just end it that way, nothing to special for me today anyways.
Updated (1:01 am): What to do? I like you but it would be wrong.
[wild ride here I come?!]
Day 7: Curiousity
I don't have that much to say today, just an ordinary day except the fact that I always get bad and creepy dreams lately. Just basically went to school. Made myself a nice dinner, a healthy dinner. I love it! I should do this more often.
It's actually a good morning/day `cuz I got my mind off something I always think of, until I got home and my stupid little sister blurb things I don't wanna know when it just happened 30 mins ago. So then that makes me wonder "what are they doing now, at this moment?" I seriously don't care but just the fact - I'm curious whats happening now and I don't have the answer(s) makes me mad. haha
So yeah, Ate gee came to visit me. She drag me to the mall, we are there for a few minutes and that's pretty much it. Soon, I'll be sleeping. 9 MOREFUCKIN`DAYS BABY!!
please, that is not a funny joke!
It's actually a good morning/day `cuz I got my mind off something I always think of, until I got home and my stupid little sister blurb things I don't wanna know when it just happened 30 mins ago. So then that makes me wonder "what are they doing now, at this moment?" I seriously don't care but just the fact - I'm curious whats happening now and I don't have the answer(s) makes me mad. haha
So yeah, Ate gee came to visit me. She drag me to the mall, we are there for a few minutes and that's pretty much it. Soon, I'll be sleeping. 9 MOREFUCKIN`DAYS BABY!!
Day 6: Snow Day
I don't have much to say, I didn't go to school and worked at home `cuz I wasn't feeling well (neck hurts) - my little 'unhealthy' attacks again. Besides that, I have the weirdest dreams ever about my old classmates and with my "imissyou" family involve in some creepy situations.
TOP 3 LOVES OF THE DAY
1. I am lucky to have the BESTEST big sister
- I feel so great that no matter what my sister will always support me and be there for me. Even though, She clearly don't need to go to the gym but she went with me today : ) geez! this girl is like 105 lbs w/ 5'8 height! i lab you ate <3
2. I have something to look forward to
- I can't damn wait for my vacation! 10FCKIN`DAYSBABY! = ]
3. For me to be able to access any crazy things I thought of doing
- Serious, It's not like I can't do anything I want - it's just the matter of me saying If I wanna do it now. Like all these crazy thoughts lately, I can do it right now If I want to ; so what's stopping me?!
So tired now. I need to put back my clean clothes, wake up early tomorrow and seriously have to do gazillions of homework!!! Falling behind school isn't that much fun...
what have you done to me! I am cursed
TOP 3 LOVES OF THE DAY
1. I am lucky to have the BESTEST big sister
- I feel so great that no matter what my sister will always support me and be there for me. Even though, She clearly don't need to go to the gym but she went with me today : ) geez! this girl is like 105 lbs w/ 5'8 height! i lab you ate <3
2. I have something to look forward to
- I can't damn wait for my vacation! 10FCKIN`DAYSBABY! = ]
3. For me to be able to access any crazy things I thought of doing
- Serious, It's not like I can't do anything I want - it's just the matter of me saying If I wanna do it now. Like all these crazy thoughts lately, I can do it right now If I want to ; so what's stopping me?!
So tired now. I need to put back my clean clothes, wake up early tomorrow and seriously have to do gazillions of homework!!! Falling behind school isn't that much fun...
Day 5: Quickly
Sorry, little miss cranky here. I am so tired but I don`t want to miss one day of blogging so I am dedicating few minutes to blog.
Homework, take home-work, drama and blah blah. I don`t wanna deal with all this things, All I wanna do is get away from here.
TOP 3 LOVES OF THE DAY
1. I am lucky to have a job not misz. jobless
- I can`t complain with my job. Time goes by so quickly and I got something to do, something that will benefit me later on. So bravo for that & I am getting paid !
2. I am lucky I have a house to go home to
- since I am not homeless, and there are people looking for me at the end of the night (which is pretty much annoying at times).
3. I am lucky I got good friends to put a smile on my face.
- thanks to my co-workers, classmate and closefriends, who little do they know - they make me smile. And thanks lorie for making me start your car! take note: she isn`t there, she just gave me her keys --hah! didn`t know you were serious, I could have drove it away haha - fun stuff.
I guess that is pretty much it for the day. As you notice my top 3 isn`t much of what I did today cuz I really don`t think I have enough GOOD things but I just made it up to view the better side of the day/life than dwelling the `what-nots`.
now, off to bed cuz little MS. CRANKY here can`t wait to ZzzzZzzz.
Tryna put aside, tryna stop saying your name `cuz all it do is make me look for you (every minute)
Homework, take home-work, drama and blah blah. I don`t wanna deal with all this things, All I wanna do is get away from here.
TOP 3 LOVES OF THE DAY
1. I am lucky to have a job not misz. jobless
- I can`t complain with my job. Time goes by so quickly and I got something to do, something that will benefit me later on. So bravo for that & I am getting paid !
2. I am lucky I have a house to go home to
- since I am not homeless, and there are people looking for me at the end of the night (which is pretty much annoying at times).
3. I am lucky I got good friends to put a smile on my face.
- thanks to my co-workers, classmate and closefriends, who little do they know - they make me smile. And thanks lorie for making me start your car! take note: she isn`t there, she just gave me her keys --hah! didn`t know you were serious, I could have drove it away haha - fun stuff.
I guess that is pretty much it for the day. As you notice my top 3 isn`t much of what I did today cuz I really don`t think I have enough GOOD things but I just made it up to view the better side of the day/life than dwelling the `what-nots`.
now, off to bed cuz little MS. CRANKY here can`t wait to ZzzzZzzz.
Day 4: Cheek Kisses
I don't think I'll do the top 3 today, I think there are enough good things that happened. Lets erase the bad ones (bad car ride) and replaced with hanging out with person I could always count on also known as "the bestfriend".
Memories stays, will always be.
I love the friendly hugs & cheek kisses,
future endeavors and afternoon eat - outs.
I know I can always count on you,
and you can do the same for me.
No malice and no bad intentions,
no boundaries were crossed,
just two bestfriends hanging out.
Thanks for being a good friend, thats all I want.
It's funny how we have fun going shopping when we are bestfriends rather than going shopping with "titles". I wish it will always be like this, though it's expected not to last. No matter what though, no communication or not - our friendship stays.
"I may not have gone where I intended to go but I think I ended up where I intended to be." - Douglas Adams-